#voicethisout

Hi Anu Akka. My story is something weird, I don’t know whether anyone would have faced the same situation as me.

I just want to all the men out there that if your wife says no to a baby or one more baby, please consider that it’s not just good for the wife but also for the baby to whom they gonna give birth. It might sound weird but when the baby grows up it hits hard mentally.

I’m one of such kind of babies where my mother said no to me after my sister but my father forced my mother and am struggling with that even after I gave birth to a baby. I always used to think whether I’m born to my mother or she adopted me because she has never been kind or shown any affection to me and has not taught anything to me as a girl child right from periods or using pads or any sexual abuse. I was abused by a neighbor guy, a school van driver, those days I was not knowing that is wrong but I used to cry when those things happened, but my mother took that lightly and didn’t look into the matter of why am crying.

And most of the days right from my schooling I spent my life in a hostel till getting married. So even if I come during festivals or weekend holidays, she used to scold me and if I get periods on festival days, she used to scold me as “dharithiram”.

During my school or college days, if I want to buy any inners, she will just say “I don’t know you talk to your father, tell the reason and get the money”. Most days I was wearing dirty and torn inners. Due to corona, I was supposed to stay at my home. Those days were like hell for me, I used to think of committing suicide most of the days.

Later got married and stayed in my husband’s home. My father fell sick so my husband and I stayed in my mother’s home for almost 5 months to take care of my father. That time I got conceived, those pregnancy days that frying smell I used to get vomit so I didn’t go to the kitchen while cooking. My mother got angry that am not supporting her and when am going to eat around 3 o clock she will be scolding me and won’t let me eat. She wanted to send me and my husband back to my in-law’s home even though I was pregnant (even my sister is still not having any baby after many years of marriage). My baby is her first grandson.

During the last 4 months of pregnancy and after delivering my baby till now (baby 9 months) am staying in my in-laws’ home, as my mother is not ready to care for me and my baby.

My mother-in-law won’t talk to me much, just like a stranger she treats me. The only best thing that happened to me in my life is my husband and my baby.

Please men never ever force a woman to have a baby if they are not interested. Not all will change after the baby. Some women show hatred towards the baby till the end. only the baby gonna suffer always.