#voicethisout

It’s a tough unknown journey that is rarely experienced by people in our surroundings. It’s been more than 2 years. still, I find it hard to enjoy big things in my life. Whenever I start jumping with joy, my baby’s face (couldn’t picture well which makes me feel worse about myself) comes in front of me.

We planned naming him Vrikshan and my first reason to get attracted to your page. In fact, my husband named one of our ventures in his name so that he lives in our memories forever.

Being a human, there are lots of insensitive people asking unwanted questions. Whenever people ask me where is my baby I just stand there totally lost. Some ask me questions do you have children? (Please don’t ask this question to anyone. You don’t know what they are going through) With a heavy heart I had to say “No”. These questions come from youngsters these days which is much worse to know how the society is raising them without sensitivity.

Being in a joint family makes it even more harder. My co-sister’s 7-year-old son used to ask me where is my baby and no one in the house seems to have asked him not to talk about it with me. Being a small kid, I can’t get mad at him. Facing this problem for past 2 years. Another kid used to punch me in my tummy ever since I had my c-section. Even that is not taken a serious issue by them.

Cooking was my only distraction for which my mil and co sister decide the menu in front of me without even considering me standing. Again (even in that pregnancy) I had to eat meals without love. Sometimes I ask my husband to get me dinner outside which I will be having at 11 in my room after a big starvation.